~i am dancing, shrouded by green trees~

I find sometimes I think so much about something that it becomes a huge black hole for my thoughts, always there and eating up all the other thoughts until it becomes a big obese overfed thought. The sort of thing that just stays in the back of your mind and becomes sort of white noise. Normally I write these things down in some way or another and it sort of lifts it a little. Not always a successful effort, but worth a try. Sometimes it feels like I'm balancing something heavy on my head that obscures the top of my vision or something, it doesn't really make much sense. I think what I need at the moment is clarity. I hope I haven't scared anyone off with my bizarre moment of WHAT THE HECK IS NICKY ON ABOUT THIS TIME.